Archive for the 'Fighting the battle' Category
It is so strange how I can be so very aware of my lack of awareness. I can be really, really THERE whilst I’m buying the vat of ice cream and the family-size bag of pretzels.Yet, if I was really there I would eschew them in favour of, well, nothing at all really, given that [...]
Hubby went away last week and he’ll be gone for a while. It was always going to be a testing time and two days ago I thought I’d failed the test, big time. I’ve had a few days of tricky evenings, but managed to hold onto some sense of control until Monday.
As is my usual [...]
You know that thing about learning – you start off as unconsciously incompetent (first stage), then when you cotton on that you know jack about the thing, you become consciously incompetent (2nd). Then you start to learn and you become consciously competent (3rd) and you’ve really cracked it when you finally are unconsciously competent (the [...]
I’m back to normal. Not ‘normal’ you’ll note. That’s for people without B.E.D. I’m just ordinary normal. Which is bad news. It means I’m not practicing conscious eating. I’m not bingeing per se but inexorably drifting into the place where I shall. Regular readers will have noticed my absence and probably worked out that it [...]
It’s been a while, but today, this afternoon has got me right back in the saddle. Bingeing for my country. Starting well, with a bowl of sultanas, moving on to a lump of Brie and then, properly in the zone, into the freezer for a bag of scones, 10 mins warming them through and about [...]
It just creeps on me insidiously! How annoying, I hadn’t noticed that before. I’ve always thought that there was a trigger which, if I could identify it, I could work on and all would be well. Naive, you might think given I’ve been struggling with this for so long.
A lovely restful weekend away gave me [...]
This is a hard time. I thought I was doing well but I’m being sucked into the vortex of the B.E.D. cycle. The triggers are hard to spot. I thought it was to do with planning, but I’ve done that and yet tonight I binged on left over party food. I feel really fed up [...]
